My History
Even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and without blemish before him in love;
Ephesians 1:4
I was born in 1996 in a small town in Poland. My mother says that from an early age I was hyperactive and did not act like other children. Finally, my mother took me to a psychologist and after a few examinations with specialists, the diagnosis was made. ADHD! After therapy with a psychologist, which lasted 2 years, there was an improvement. However, the psychologist told my mother that there would always be some problems with me.
Unfortunately, I grew up only with my brother because my dad left us when I was 3 years old. I’ve always wanted a dad.
In 2002. we emigrated to the United States. I was only 5 years old at the time. Everything was going well. I went to school and I did very well at it. My mother has worked long and hard to support us.
When I was 13, something started to go wrong. I couldn’t get along with my mother. I started playing hooky. Life seemed pointless to me. I felt depressed. I started cutting myself to deal with the psychological pain. It was the first time I had been to a youth center with emotional problems.
I was there for 6 months and I missed my mother and my friends a lot.
I decided that when I get home I will completely change my life. I even thought to myself that nobody really matters except my family. My mother was always available to me when I needed her. I changed for a moment.
Later, at the age of 15, I met my first boyfriend. He was popular and
I was glad that he paid attention to me. After a while he got me into drugs. I was still depressed. My mother did her best to help me.
I had therapy, I was taking medications, but nothing worked.
Finally, at the age of 16, I ended up in a drug rehabilitation center by a court decision. For the next two years, I changed centers. I was also in a juvenile detention center. My mother always supported and visited me.
In one of the centers, I met a guardian who started talking to me about Jesus. I believed that I believed in Jesus because I was a Catholic, just like my whole family, but I heard things from him that I had never heard before. I learned that my works did not deserve salvation
Ephesians 2, 8-10)
I knew how I live and I couldn’t change it. Sometimes I told my mother that I was going to hell after I died. When I turned 18 I returned home.
I wanted to live differently, but I couldn’t. I was still looking for something to ease my existential pain. Everything just didn’t make sense. A friend of mine treated me with heroin. It worked. I felt well. I could do anything.
I started college. I was doing well and I enjoyed learning. Everything was going well. All my problems are gone. Until … when the first withdrawal pain came. I was running out of money for drugs so I was robbing my mother and brother.
I always felt bad when I did, but the addiction was stronger. Eventually I landed on the street and my hell began. To earn money for drugs, I started prostitution. I was raped and held a gun to my head. I have experienced everything there is to think about.
I didn’t want to live like that, so I tried to get out of the addiction.
My mom always helped me. It didn’t work right away. I wasn’t able to persevere in the detox and after a few days I was running away.
Then I remembered the Gospel preached to me by the caretaker in the center. I knew what to do. I gave my life to Jesus and I asked Him to be my Lord and Savior and that He would guide my life. At that time, my mother converted to God and God put people who served God on our way.
They also helped us.
My life was starting to change. Finally, I was able to persevere in the detox without any boosters or medications. I was proud of myself and grateful to God at the same time. My mom drove me to the Florida drug addiction program. I felt there was hope for me. At that time, I also began to preach the Gospel wherever I was. I told everyone about Jesus because I felt how much he changed in my life. I consciously got baptized and felt for the first time that everything was going in the right direction
